You And This Burning Chest Are The Reason It Hurts by SkramzGirl, literature
Literature
You And This Burning Chest Are The Reason It Hurts
I think about you all the time
As I'm sitting on the porch wrapped in your
Old faux leather coat
The snow continues fall and the lights
Begin to fade
It's getting darker, still
And you're steadily growing farther, still
I know you're too far away to listen
To me beg anymore
It's twelve AM in Chicago, and I guess
That's where you belong
It's time to eat lunch here but my stomach
Is deeply rooted in my brain
It's hungry for the thought of you
Coming back over to stay
Writing letters on loose leaf paper,
Washing the pencil stains from my hands
Sending out the post cards, and
Trying to wrap my head around this
Why aren't you here?
This is going
These poems are carved on the lines in his face
The crevice of weakening skin beneath his eyes tell the stories
Of yesterday, when he stood up late at night
Building a piece straight from the heart
The sawdust and splinters embedded in his skin speak of the wood
That passed through his hands
He's weary and weak but he'll be happy once the project is complete
He'll get to look up at her and say,
“Margaret, this is for you, I made it from love, from sweat, tears
And pain
I cut through the bellies of trees through the sunshine and rain.”
“Sleeping in Heaven, I know in your dreams you're watching
Margaret, this is for you
Sle
You've got a lot of nerve, don't you know?
Talking to me like I don't have a single clue
Of what's going on with you
Tell me, why have you become so grave?
Nothing makes you smile
Not even if I offer to stay awhile
I've tried getting through to you,
But it's getting harder and harder to get
Inside your head
And now
[chorus]
You're taking control of everything
You hold close to yourself
You're making this a difficult task
I've been pushed from the highest shelf
You're taking control of everything
You hold close to yourself
I'm starting to think that you were
Replaced by a tiny little heart
It's a doppelganger of who you once were
[tiny, tiny
If I were dead would you try to resuscitate me?
If I drowned would you pump the water from my lungs and lay me out like a soiled sweatshirt
To dry in the sun?
Would you try to help me stand as I watch the water devour my toes in the sand
If I were dead would you have a break down at the wake?
Empty my remains onto the ground, say a prayer and see if I come back around?
Crush the roses between your finger tips?
Tell the funeral parlour it was all just a mistake; “She's alive and well and this casket
Makes her body ache.”
Would you like to share our breath like conjoined twins in the womb?
Would you hold me close and say, “My
He looks like he's about to explode; stumbles into the room
Before falling face down into the dirty hardwood floor
His heart is beating in chest much faster than the blood running
Through his veins, much faster than the clock ticking on the wall and
Faster than the timer on the oven set to go off
He stretches out a quivering hand, draws his nails across the wood;
Tries to pull himself to his feet
The poor bastard is struggling as we speak (it never crossed his mind that
He'd ever be so weak)
He yearns to be like the shadows dancing upon the walls and the ghosts dining in
The empty halls
Why can't he be like these demons in his head, free